I can’t even put into words how much I am loathing NYE this year. I am in the crappiest mood, I don’t want to leave the house, I don’t want to drink. I want to just lay in bed, in my pjs and not do anything. Ugh. Part of me, a big part of me, wished that I had to work tonight. Sure, I’ll have it all rubbed in my face, happy couples going out to dinner, but its gonna be so busy, I wouldn’t have to think. Thinking of taking some xanax so I can shut my brain up.